In Denver and calmer

First off, all of my freaking out yesterday is better now. I called the nurse's number about threes times yesterday and wrote my nurse an email. I never got a response from anyone. They must have not had a lot of people on staff yesterday. Anyway, I finally ended up calling the emergency number and finally got to talk to someone. It probably cost me $20 for that little piece of mind, but it was worth it. She told me to just go ahead and start taking the dexamethasone last night and everything should be okay. She said of all the things to mess up with my medication that was it! So I feel a little bit better, although if this doesn't work out I will probably wonder if it's because of me messing this up. Oh well. There's not much I can do about it now!

In other news, I made it to Denver and am now sleepily typing on the desk of my home for the next 16 days. The Marriott townsuites are pretty nice. It's a good amount of space for what we need and it is an excellent price for a two bedroom suite! I feel like I am in a little apartment and I'm loving it! It will be great for everyone to kind of have an escape if they need it. With everyone who is coming to Denver during this I'm sure we will all appreciate that!

Here are some pictures of our suite if you're interested.

My bedroom


Jordan, Jim, and miles' room




Our living room



Our kitchen




Our bathroom




Stay tuned for my ultra sound results tomorrow! I'll try to post as soon as I can.

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Freaking out

Ok so I feel like a huge idiot. I almost didn't even post about this because I feel so stupid for doing this. So among all of my medications that were shipped to me, I had about four bottles of meds in pill form. On my calendar it says to start taking dexamethasone each night starting on Thursday when I started my shots. Well, I did not see the dexamethasone bottle but I did see the doxycycline, which I have taken with every other cycle so I assumed that's what I was supposed to take. Well, today as I was packing up my meds for the plane I found the dexamethasone. So for four days I have been taking something I wasn't supposed to and not taking something I was supposed to. I immediately called the nurse, but since it's memorial day they don't have as much staff working and it may be a while before I get a call back. I sure hope they call soon because I am freaking out! What if I totally screwed this whole thing up? What if they tell me that I have to stop everything now and start again next month? I don't think that's going to happen but you never know! I just wish they would call me back soon. Ugh I am such an idiot!,,


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Bathrooms and parking lots

I titled this post "bathrooms and parking lots" because those are two places that I have had to give myself my shots this weekend. My mom and my aunt came to visit this weekend, which meant we were out and about all day every day. On Friday night we had reservations to eat and take the mystery tour at the Myrtles Plantation in St. Francisville - a supposedly haunted plantation in Louisiana (you may have seen it on an episode of Ghost Hunters). Anyway, my shots have to be given every twelve hours and at the same time every day. So since I give my shots at 8:00 each am and pm, that meant that I had to load up my meds and needles into an ice chest (some of them have to be refrigerated) and take them with me. When our tour was over it was 8:00, so I slipped my meds into my purse and went into the bathroom stall to give them to myself. Needless to say, I felt like a complete druggie! I just kept imagining that someone would come into the bathroom and se me sitting on the toilet seat sticking a needle into my thigh! I was cracking up the entire time!

Then last night, we had to go to a wedding in downtown Baton Rouge so again I loaded my meds into an ice chest and in the middle of the reception I had to go out to the car (by the way we were parked in my church parking lot and keep in mind the school where I teach is connected to my church) and I gave my shots while cop cars were driving past. It was actually quite terrifying! I wasn't sure if they would believe my story! Luckily, we didn't run into any problems except for the shot last night made me bleed and I forgot to take bandaids along so I was worried I would walk back into the wedding reception with a big blood stain on my dress. But luckily, all was well!

The kicker is going to be when I have to give my shots in the airplane bathroom! Now that's going to be interesting!

I'm leaving in two days! I can't believe it. I'm just so ready for that first ultra sound to see if anything is happening in there. I'm getting really nervous but trying to stay calm by listening to my IVF meditation CD. By the way, for those of you doing IVF I strongly recommend downloading the cd from circle and bloom's website. They have a different mediation for each part of the cycle and it is oh so relaxing. I listen it every night and it practically hypnotizes me!

By the way, sorry for any typos. This is my first post on my iPad and I'm not completely used to the keyboard. Plus it tends to autocorrect when it's not necessary!

We got the "go ahead"

I went in for my suppression check yesterday morning. I ended up going to the doctor here in Baton Rouge - the one that I don't like - because I couldn't take off time from work to go to my beloved doctor in Jackson. It's our last week of school and I couldn't bare to leave my kids with a sub on one of our last days. The whole time we were in the ultra sound room I was telling R that I wished we were at Dr. Isaacs. The people were just so rude to us yesterday. I know they have no reason to be nice - it's not like we have built a relationship or anything, nor are we giving them our money for IVF (although they did get close to $500 from us yesterday for the ultra sound and blood work - unbelievable!) There just wasn't any sort of compassion. Dr. W just came in, stuck the ultra sound wand in, said something like "there's your left ovary, there's your right ovary, there's your uterus. We'll send the results off. Now go get the blood work." He didn't even shake my hand when he came in - isn't that normal protocol for doctors? He didn't look me in the eye, didn't say hello, nothing. Maybe I'm just being oversensitive right now...it just validated for me that I'm glad I never went back to him. It was worth driving the 2.5 hours 4 times a week when I cycled with Dr. Isaacs.

Anyway, I got the call from CCRM around 2:00 yesterday afternoon and they said everything looks good! All of my hormone levels are where they're supposed to be and they didn't see any cysts. So we're all set to start lupron and saizen tomorrow and then add the stim meds (menopur and gonal f) on Saturday.

I'm getting all geared up for the trip. R is going to get me an iPad today since I have to give up my work laptop tomorrow. That way I can have something to watch movies on and update my blog on of course! :)

Meds

As promised...here's a picture of all of the hormones I will be subjecting my body to over the next month. Crazy huh? Only 7 more days on birth control and then I'll start stims next Thursday. I have a suppression check with the doctor here (timing didn't work out to go to my doctor in Jackson) on Tuesday morning. So as long as that goes okay and I don't have any cysts, everything will be a go!

And Here We Go!

Well my period started this morning - two days late...ugh! I was so nervous that it was going to start all last week. If it had started early it would have been terrible because it would have meant me missing some of my last week of school. So the good news is that won't be happening! The bad news is that I will probably end up needing to change my flight home from Denver. Oh well. I'll probably just get a voucher from Southwest and use the flights later for R and I to go on a couple trip during labor day or something. We deserve it! =)

So now I start birth control on Thursday - yuck! And then 14 days after that is when all the fun begins! I got my meds a few days ago and let me tell you - it is a lot! I am going to be on double the amount of meds that I've ever been on before and that's scary. When I have a chance I'll take pictures of it all and post it on here. All of my friends who have done some sort of fertility treatment with injections tell me to take pictures each time so that you can always remember what you went through to get your baby. Not that I think I'll ever forget!

Getting Nervous

As the time gets closer, I am getting more and more nervous about starting this whole process again. I'm excited, don't get me wrong, but I am dreading the effects on my body. I am especially not excited about starting the birth control in a few days. For some reason, that part is always the worst to me. It's hormonal effects are always so much worse than the shots. Of course this time I will be on so many hormones that I may be inserting my foot into my mouth pretty soon! I'm not excited about the weight gain, or the acne, or the bruises from the needles. But, I know it is all worth it - we hope!

I am excited about going to Denver in the spring time. Every time I've been it has been beautiful weather, but a little chilly. I'm excited about getting outdoors and enjoying the scenery more!

Anyway, I expect things to start here any day! My body is telling me that AF (aunt flow) is on her way. I just hope that she holds off until Sunday so that I don't have to change flights!