Freaking out

Ok so I feel like a huge idiot. I almost didn't even post about this because I feel so stupid for doing this. So among all of my medications that were shipped to me, I had about four bottles of meds in pill form. On my calendar it says to start taking dexamethasone each night starting on Thursday when I started my shots. Well, I did not see the dexamethasone bottle but I did see the doxycycline, which I have taken with every other cycle so I assumed that's what I was supposed to take. Well, today as I was packing up my meds for the plane I found the dexamethasone. So for four days I have been taking something I wasn't supposed to and not taking something I was supposed to. I immediately called the nurse, but since it's memorial day they don't have as much staff working and it may be a while before I get a call back. I sure hope they call soon because I am freaking out! What if I totally screwed this whole thing up? What if they tell me that I have to stop everything now and start again next month? I don't think that's going to happen but you never know! I just wish they would call me back soon. Ugh I am such an idiot!,,


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Bathrooms and parking lots

I titled this post "bathrooms and parking lots" because those are two places that I have had to give myself my shots this weekend. My mom and my aunt came to visit this weekend, which meant we were out and about all day every day. On Friday night we had reservations to eat and take the mystery tour at the Myrtles Plantation in St. Francisville - a supposedly haunted plantation in Louisiana (you may have seen it on an episode of Ghost Hunters). Anyway, my shots have to be given every twelve hours and at the same time every day. So since I give my shots at 8:00 each am and pm, that meant that I had to load up my meds and needles into an ice chest (some of them have to be refrigerated) and take them with me. When our tour was over it was 8:00, so I slipped my meds into my purse and went into the bathroom stall to give them to myself. Needless to say, I felt like a complete druggie! I just kept imagining that someone would come into the bathroom and se me sitting on the toilet seat sticking a needle into my thigh! I was cracking up the entire time!

Then last night, we had to go to a wedding in downtown Baton Rouge so again I loaded my meds into an ice chest and in the middle of the reception I had to go out to the car (by the way we were parked in my church parking lot and keep in mind the school where I teach is connected to my church) and I gave my shots while cop cars were driving past. It was actually quite terrifying! I wasn't sure if they would believe my story! Luckily, we didn't run into any problems except for the shot last night made me bleed and I forgot to take bandaids along so I was worried I would walk back into the wedding reception with a big blood stain on my dress. But luckily, all was well!

The kicker is going to be when I have to give my shots in the airplane bathroom! Now that's going to be interesting!

I'm leaving in two days! I can't believe it. I'm just so ready for that first ultra sound to see if anything is happening in there. I'm getting really nervous but trying to stay calm by listening to my IVF meditation CD. By the way, for those of you doing IVF I strongly recommend downloading the cd from circle and bloom's website. They have a different mediation for each part of the cycle and it is oh so relaxing. I listen it every night and it practically hypnotizes me!

By the way, sorry for any typos. This is my first post on my iPad and I'm not completely used to the keyboard. Plus it tends to autocorrect when it's not necessary!

We got the "go ahead"

I went in for my suppression check yesterday morning. I ended up going to the doctor here in Baton Rouge - the one that I don't like - because I couldn't take off time from work to go to my beloved doctor in Jackson. It's our last week of school and I couldn't bare to leave my kids with a sub on one of our last days. The whole time we were in the ultra sound room I was telling R that I wished we were at Dr. Isaacs. The people were just so rude to us yesterday. I know they have no reason to be nice - it's not like we have built a relationship or anything, nor are we giving them our money for IVF (although they did get close to $500 from us yesterday for the ultra sound and blood work - unbelievable!) There just wasn't any sort of compassion. Dr. W just came in, stuck the ultra sound wand in, said something like "there's your left ovary, there's your right ovary, there's your uterus. We'll send the results off. Now go get the blood work." He didn't even shake my hand when he came in - isn't that normal protocol for doctors? He didn't look me in the eye, didn't say hello, nothing. Maybe I'm just being oversensitive right now...it just validated for me that I'm glad I never went back to him. It was worth driving the 2.5 hours 4 times a week when I cycled with Dr. Isaacs.

Anyway, I got the call from CCRM around 2:00 yesterday afternoon and they said everything looks good! All of my hormone levels are where they're supposed to be and they didn't see any cysts. So we're all set to start lupron and saizen tomorrow and then add the stim meds (menopur and gonal f) on Saturday.

I'm getting all geared up for the trip. R is going to get me an iPad today since I have to give up my work laptop tomorrow. That way I can have something to watch movies on and update my blog on of course! :)